So last night I figured out how quickly I could become obsessed with Sudoku! Once I introduced this game to my Mom, she was obsessed instantly and is now sending me emails with her best time on solving. I don't need another time waster in my life but oh it is fun to play!
Today I read that Andrea Yates was found NOT GUILTY in the murders of her children. But I don't think it would be a good idea for me to even explore my feelings on this subject matter. I am sure there are many opinions out there. Mine are extremely strong so I will keep them to myself and of course I will share them with my sweet husband. But if you get a chance, read the article that I have linked with her name. They jurors believe she is insane. A long drawn out trial to come to the conclusion that she is insane?? I think we knew that the moment we heard she murdered her children! Okay, here I go. I need to move on or I will turn this blog post into my feelings on Andrea Yates. Not a good idea. I do pray that she finds the help she needs, she is very sick.
This morning I had a sonogram and I think today was the day! Today it finally sunk in that I am going to be a mother of three come January! Wow. Good news, the morning sickness is GONE!Well, except for when I brush my teeth! My Doctor told me today, "You are what we call, perfect. Everything looks great." I asked if I could get that in writing so I could show my husband but he just laughed. Seriously though! I know he was referring to the pregnancy but I know I heard the word PERFECT mixed in with my name! When I saw the hands and the feet and the head and pretty much the whole baby, I was ecstatic. Even though this is my third, the excitement is still booming with this one just as much as the other two. The baby was jumping all around and my Doctor printed tons of pictures and gave Josiah one too. Just a little while ago when I was putting him down for a nap, he asked if he could have the picture of his baby brother in his room. He is really thinking it's a boy and so does Daddy. But, I have NO IDEA! After having Ava Beth, I think another boy would be great! She is a hand full! Boy, girl, makes no difference to me! Healthy baby is what I want! We find out what we are having on August 31st unless one of my sonographer friends can sneak me in. I have two friends that do sonograms for a living so with both of my other kids, I knew at 15 weeks what they were. Soon I will be loading THREE kids in the car. I think I am still in shock!
Today I am reading Romans, chapter five. I am really enjoying Romans. I would love to get a book or commentary just on Romans. The Lord is really revealing so many things to me. Chapter four was awesome too. We have been contemplating the name Abraham for a boy so reading about him in chapter four really made me love that name and all that it stands for. We could all take a lesson from Abraham. 4:1-3 So how do we fit what we know of Abraham, our first father in the faith, into this new way of looking at things? If Abraham, by what he did for God, got God to approve him, he could certainly have taken credit for it. But the story we're given is a God-story, not an Abraham-story. What we read in Scripture is, "Abraham entered into what God was doing for him, and that was the turning point. He trusted God to set him right instead of trying to be right on his own." The faith of Abraham is amazing. It's supernatural. When everything looked hopeless, Abraham believed. Do I have faith like that? That's the faith I want! This passage talks about how Abraham did not live his life based on what he couldn't do but he lived his life based on what God said he would do! Abraham never focused on his 100 year old body or Sarah's infertility, he focused on what God said he would do! Verse 18 says that God himself said to him, "You're going to have a big family,Abraham!" This chapter really is amazing and it will renew your faith in so many ways. Read chapter four today!
Playing Sudoku, reading the paper, going to an OB appointment and spending time with my Lord by reading His word has given me lots to think about today and talk about. But still, all day long I have been thinking about Amy. How is she feeling today? Is she scared? Is she having a good day? I wish I could go and sit with her, pray for her or sing to her. She needs so many of us to stand in the gap for her, to intercede for her and to have faith for her. Abraham would have faith for Amy. He would tell her that God can do ANYTHING. So today I am praying that Amy will feel the spirit of the Lord and that she will BELIEVE that God can do anything for her, anything.
Thank you Jesus for all that you have done for me. Thank you for teaching me, correcting me, but most of all for loving me. I know that there is nothing I can do to separate me from your love. Thank you for your word and all that I learn from it. You have changed me, you have healed me, you have done for me all that you said you would do and more. You are my savior.