Thursday, December 29, 2005

Do they really know?

A few weeks ago I was delivering some baked good for my business and a few of my customers were talking about me when I walked up. They did not know I heard them but I did. It was nothing bad, it was all good. They were referring to me in such an amazing manner and spoke of me like I had such a glorious life. I did not let them know I heard what they said, but I thought to myself, "If they only knew my cost. If they only knew the price I have paid for this anointing on my life." They may not know it is an anointing but I do. God has brought me through so much pain and changed me from the inside out. Those women don't know my story. They don't know my pain. They don't know my past. The only thing they know is what they see now. And God is still not finished with me yet!

Sometimes I like to imagine what people think about me when I am not around. What do they say? Who do they really think I am? They see the outside package but do they really know what is on the inside.

How many times have I made a judgment on someone before I really got to know them? Christians are the worst when it comes to this! I used to be a very judgmental person until I realized all that God delivered me from. Now, I know I am nothing without Him.

To be continued


Laura Archer said...

Can't wait for the "continued" part! This one hit home. We've talked about this before. It's so easy to be judgemental, but we really have to consider what a person has gone through or what they may be going through! Wouldn't it be great if we could read minds though. It would take all the stress out of every possible issue. But since that will never happen, we have the best thing...and that's prayer. When we feel uncomfortable in a situation or if we feel someone is passing judgement on us, all we have to do is pray and God can release all the stress from us! He can change our hearts or help us to forgive! Isn't God working on all of us, and when He isn't, then we need to worry. This is an area where God is working on me, and through Him I'm learning to love those who I don't understand or who I may mis-understand. He is so awesome and we are nothing without Him!

Sonya Terrell said...

This was so good, Amanda! I commented in you last blog how I know people perceive me one way but they don't really see how I am way down deep inside.

God is changing me everyday and sometimes it's hard to face the real me. I am so thankful that he is not finished with me yet, because I am not near the person I very much want to be.

By the way, I think of you as a very wise and discerning woman and I count myself blessed to know you.

Amanda said...

Sonya, your words mean so much. Thank you for being such a loving friend in my life. I know I live far away now but I feel like I still have an awesome connection with you. Your pursuit after God makes me want to do the same.

kelly G said...

So true Amanda. We are so quick to cast judgement and never stop to think about the life others lead. If we would put our energies into building others up rather than casting judgement, we would all be better for it!

Kelly G.