Tuesday, May 23, 2006

John 21

It's the last day of John. I had big plans for this post but things around the house have been crazy. Too many details to explain but a lot has been going on. Really I think I over committed myself for this week. Keep me in your prayers. I have not blogged about this but my husband has recently suffered a pretty bad back injury. He has physical therapy three days a week and had an MRI yesterday morning. We are still waiting for the report. For twelve years he has worked for UPS and I think it has finally taken a toll on his body. Our home has been under a lot of stress lately in so many ways. Please keep us in your prayers. Also I am always trying to do something to make some extra money. It's nice to be able to go out to eat on the weekends and of course it's nice to shop! So I have taken on two kids for the Summer. Twice a week, sometimes three times a week, I will be keeping two kids. They are great kids and I love the family. Also, it's a huge financial blessing. I don't want to do it but we need some extra money right now so I am trying to take every opportunity the Lord brings me.

Today, I have had a hard day. In many ways I am discouraged and disappointed. It's not really over anything particular, it's just been a tough day. I don't feel like being a friend, a wife or even a Mom today. Maybe I am just tired. My tough day can't be blamed on anything female so I am not sure what my problem is. I need some appreciation, some doting on, some love. I need to just sit in the lap of Jesus and cry.

Tonight is American Idol, so dinner is already cooking! My best friend from High School is coming over tonight for dinner as we watch the final two on American Iol. So I have got to find some energy.

I read John, but I have nothing to say. I'm pooped. Instead of starting the "Go Eat Popcorn" reading tomorrow, I would like to start on Thursday. So just a day later than originally planned.
I am really looking forward to the next three and a half weeks of reading. These chapters are much needed in my life right now. Not really sure how to tell you to pray for me, I am sure the Holy Spirit can guide you.


momteacherfriend said...

Much love Amanda! We all have days like that.

Chapter 21
One thing that I noticed is that some of the disciples were fishermen before they followed Jesus. It appears that they never stopped being fisherman, or at least still had means to fish. So they are fishing unsuccessfully and then the Lord comes and gives them the specific instructions..."throw your net on the right side..." They knew how to fish, they were fishermen, yet the were not having any success. Then they follow his instruction and they are blessed beyond their comprehension.

What is it that I know how to do? Would I hear the instructions of the Lord or override with my own knowhow. Do I do this and miss blessing?

Lord I love you. I love you. I love you.

Sarah H. said...

OH Amanda, my heart reaches out for you!!
You say you're not sure what the problem is, but I'm sure the fact that your husband suffered an injury has got everything to do with it.

I guess sometimes we get so busy with everything that whenever something happens to make us STOP, the stress dawns on us.

But don't forget you still ARE a mommy, a wife and a friend and those around you NEED you!

I mean, I don't even know you and I visit this site everyday!!!

And I just said all of this because Chapter 21 of John shows that after Jesus resurrected, he took time to visit his friends and eat with them!

And he performed so many miracles that "If every one of them were written down, I suppose that even the whole world would not have room for the books that would be written."

HE is the great 'Encourager' of us all:)

Christy said...

I am praying for you and I love you! I hope you sat in the lap of Jesus for a while and let him hold and comfort you. He will give you exactly what your needing! I will be praying for Jeremy and will ask my Jeremy too as well. By the way, I meant to tell you earlier -- its time for that 3rd baby :)

Anonymous said...

I read Chapter 21 but I fogot to leave a comment.
Amanda, I hope things are better for you today. Take care ....

mommyofangels said...

Tonight will be better, since it's the American Idol Finals. Hope you have a better day. John 21... I read.

Kelly Ann said...

I thought about you ALL day yesterday! Sorry I didn't call to check on you!

Love you!

Kellie said...

Amanda, You are loved beyond your comprehension. You have been a blessing to me and as you may not know to many other women as well. We feel you because we know what you are feeling and don't ever want our loved ones to go through the pain too. But beyond that JESUS loves you so much it is hard for our minds to understand.
Here are some lyrics to a song I love.

JESUS is here
with HIS arms open wide
You can see HIM with your heart
if you stop looking with your eyes

HE is here to love us and care for us even when we don't understand with our human minds.

Thank you for introducing us all to HIM because of this study. This is one of the best ways to get closer to HIM by studying this book.
Love ya

Minnie said...

Praying for you and for Jeremy. We are in a Valley of our own right now, so I know how you feel. Call me if you want to chat. XXOO