Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Stick with what you know!
Three days out of the week I pick up a little boy from school. For some reason when that time of day hits, I am tired. I feel sleepy and need a quick jolt of energy. So on some days I go through the Starbucks drive through for a Grande coffee with a tiny bit of cream. Sweet coffee is not usually my thing so the little tiny splash of cream/milk on top just helps me feel like it's a little less strong. This is a good choice for my budget. I don't think my husband would appreciate me buying a $4.00 fancy coffee drink three days a week. When you are on a budget, that adds up! But today, I was feeling different! Why not try something new? Why not spend $3.57 on a cup of fancy java? But then the thought of how sweet a fancy drink would be made me change my mind quickly. I can handle Pumpkin Spice Lattes at Thanksgiving and Eggnogg Lattes at Christmas but it's springtime, I need something a little more light! Then I saw it! The Green Tea Latte! I love Green Tea, it's healthy so why not have some green tea with the latte added in? Sounded delightful, sounded refreshing, sounded different and it sounded so hip! "Yes, I need a Grande Green Tea Latte, please." Now I knew that it was green tea and since the tea was green, I also knew that the drink would be green. I guess I didn't expect it to be so green! I guess I didn't think it would remind me of boogers or vomit. But, it did. The green was overwhelming! But I was being hip, I had ordered a Gen X type of drink and I was not about to let the color spoil it for me. Then I took a drink. It was all over. $3.57 wasted. Now, I am not a picky gal. I love sushi, soy beans, soy nuts, tofu, I love everything and I am not afraid to try new things. But, this I could not handle! So, I'm gonna stick with my Grande coffee with a little bit of cream! Forget the trendy drinks, I will stick with trendy shoes.
Okay, so I am thirty years old now. I am old enough to know what works in my life and what doesn't. It's not just coffee, it's my attitude. When that stressed out, fit throwing (Jeremy calls it this), pouty attitude starts to take over, I shut down. And let me tell you, I can't hide it! If I have had a hard day, you know. If someone has hurt me, you know. For those of you that can slap on a pretty smile and act like everything is fine, I'm impressed. But, I can't do it! The thing is, I know when it's coming. I know what this mood looks like, smells like, tastes like and so does my husband! When those times come, I have to lay it down. Usually I shut down and then I have to work myself back into being happy. It's obvious what I need to do. It's obvious that I need to let the Holy Spirit take over but I usually do something else instead of sticking with what I know works. If only I would get on my knees instantly, things would turn around. Sometimes we can't physically get on our knees, but we can sure get there in our minds!
When you get in that funk, when you get in that mood, when you feel it coming on, do what you know you need to do! Don't try something else, don't try to do it on your own. You know what works! Throw that Green Tea Latte in the trash and stick with the plain, old, familiar, steadfast, cup of java that you know so well! Without my cup of coffee, where would I be?